STOP #galau!

Long time no see.

Saya kedamprat banyak ujian. Yah. Menyebalkan sekali. Tapi akhirnya penderitaan saya selesai untuk semester satu ini. :D Ahahaha. UAS udah lewat. Dan alhamdulillah, terima kasih banyak buat smeua pihak yang udan bantuin ngedoain saya, saya lolos dari cengkeraman uas fisika dasar dan kimia dasar. Nggak nyangka woi, suer. Saya ngerjain ujiannya aja udah setengah nangis. Hehehe.

Oiya, beberapa hari ini saya tidur agak nggak jelas gitu. Sering kali sampai lewat tengah malam. Nah, mau tau apa penyebabnya atau pada mau nebak? Yang jelas itu bukan karena belajar. (lho?) Bingung? Saya juga heran. Saya jadi pihak pendengar (yah, lebih tepatnya saya jadi pihak penerima sms orang-orang galau). Ahaha. :D

Saya udah mantengin beberapa orang yang galau. Penyebabnya beda-beda. Tapi bisa dipastiin nyangkutnya soal cinta-cintaan gitu, walaupun ada pihak yang galaunya dia pun gak ngerti kenapa. (Kasian amat ya?)

Nah, saya sering bilang ke diri saya sendiri, 'ANAK KECIL JANGAN BICARA CINTA'. Apa maksudnya? Saya ngerasa sangat nggak expert dalam bidang ini. Lalu kenapa banyak yang curhat ke saya? Oke, bisa aja karena orang-orang ini lagi banyak pulsa (soalnya bukan cuma teman yang dekata sama saya yang curcol), atau mungkin karena saya termasuk pihak yang sangat dipercaya (sihiiiy), atau ada motif lain (misalnya, sebenernya mereka cuma pengen sms-an aja). Nah, ada yang cerita panjang lebar, sampai saya ngantuknya bukan main buat nungguin balasan sms si penggalau. Lama-lama saya kesel sendiri, yang butuh siapa, kok malah saya yang nungguin. Ya akhirnya saya tinggal tidur aja lah. Apa saya kejam dan menyebalkan? Entah ya, menurut saya sendiri ya nggak. -_-

Orang jadi galau karena mereka menikmati jadi penggalau? Dari mana saya dapat kesimpulan begini? Dari pengalaman saya sendiri tentunya. Yep. Saya juga pernah dong, galau. Wajar, saya manusia. Dan saya selalu nyari orang yang bisa dicurhatin. Nah, biasanya orang yang saya curhatin selalu ngedukung apa yang saya rasa, atau saya lakukan. Lama-lama saya mikir, mereka ini beneran setuju, atau malah udah eneg ngedengerin curhatan saya yang dari jaman jebot gak ganti-ganti topiknya? *jleb jleb!

Saya mulai belajar mengendalikan galau yang menyebalkan ini. Jujur aja, sebenarnya sama sekali nggak berhasil. -_- Susah luar biasa, diingat sedikit, muncul galaunya. Bahaya sekali si galau ini. Bisa hancur rencana gara-gara dia. Nah, satu-satunya cara, ya saya paksa.

Misalnya aja, saya galau gara-gara orang yang saya suka ternyata suka sama orang lain; Sialan itu sedihnya setengah mampus. Sedikit-sedikit kalo ngedengerin lagu yang temanya ngerujuk ke situ, rasanya pengen guling-guling di kasur sambil ngunyah bantal. (nggak segitunya juga sih). Cara saya ngilangin rasa nggak enak itu, ya, paksa aja lupain. Ngapain diingat-ingat. Dianya aja nggak mikirin saya, ngapain saya mikirin dia, enak banget dia. Nah, anggapan yang ketus, tapi sehat kan? Dengan begini, si dia nggak akan keseringan lagi mampir di kepala saya dan nginjek-nginjek kesadaran dan kebahagiaan saya. Ciyeeeee...

Adalagi, galau karena jauh dari keluarga. Ini lebih seram lagi. Kerjaan saya bisa nangis terus, sepanjang hari, jadwalnya ngelebihin jadwal minum obat, suer. Trus, saya pernah dapat nasehat dari temen saya. Dia bilang, KALO MAU NANGIS YA NANGIS AJA, TAPI HABIS ITU BANGKIT LAGI DONG! Nah! Saya ke-jleb! banget sama kata-kata dia. Dia bener. Kalo sedih ya silakan nangis, tapi jangan kebawa terus dong. Masa seumur hidup diabisin cuma buat mewek, emangnya bapak ibu nyekolahin jauh-jauh cuma buat bikin industri garam rumahan dari air mata yang kering. Kan nggak! :D

Inti dari semuanya, kalo mau bebas dari galau, caranga GAMPANG. Kita harus bikin diri kita percaya, kalo masalah itu nggak seberapa. Bisa kita handle sendiri. (Soalnya, yakin deh, rata-rata penyebab galau kita adalah masalah sepele). Kita nggak mau kan, temen kita jadi kesel ngeliat kita dan males dengerin kita gara-gara curhatan galau yang nggak penting? hehe...


Tuh, jangan lama-lama jadi wanita galau. Kita nggak mau kan jerawat tambah banyak gara-gara cuma mikirin galau. :p

The Greatest Love Of All

Setiap kali saya ngerasa down karena sesuatu, saya pasti dengerin lagu ini.
Bukan berarti karena liriknya sesuai banget dengan keadaan saya waktu itu, tapi ada beberapa potong kalimat yang emang bener-bener bisa bikin energi ter-boost gitu deh. :)

It's from george benson, my dad love this song so much.
here's the lyric!

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

Chorus:
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Chorus

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

indie attack!

Hola! Ada yang kenal wajah-wajah ini nggak?

Oke, itu adalah wajah-wajah personel band There For Tomorrow, band yang lagunya sering saya dengarkan. Genre musiknya lebih ke rock-alternatif gitu.

Album baru mereka, yaaah sebenernya udah nggak baru-baru banget sih, judulnya A LITTLE FASTER. Ada 2 single yang video klip nya udah dirilis; yaitu A LITTLE FASTER dan DEATHBED.

There For Tomorrow punya permainan gitar yang apik. Saya suka banget! Saya pecinta musik-musik rock-punk-emo-alternatif, dan permainan gitar dari sebuah band selalu jadi perhatian saya. Nah, vokalis band ini, MAIKA MAILE adalah salah satu personel yang pintar membagi tugas untuk dirinya sendiri sebagai penyanyi dan gitaris. Suaranya bagus, main gitarnya juga bagus. Klop banget lah...

Saya adalah follower Andrie Subono di twitter, beliaunya adalah yang mendatangkan artis-artis luar negeri untuk konser di Indonesia. Naaah, saya udah beberapa kali nge-twit Om Andri buat ngedatangin There For Tomorrow ke Indonesia. Saya pengen banget nonton mereka LIVE, dan foto bareng sama si Maika yang cakep itu tentunya. Ehehehe...

Oke, selanjutnya, ada yang tau THE MAINE ??????
Band ini baru aja konser di Indonesia, kalo nggak salah bareng Flo-Rida. (aaaah, saya pengen deh nonton...) The Maine juga punya genre rock-rock gitu. Lagunya asik-asik deh. Coba aja dengerin 'Inside Of You', 'Girls Do What They Want' dan 'I Must Be Dreaming'. Hadeeeeh, pengen deh liat mereka konser. T_T Ya ya, Om Andrie ya, dibantu ya, datengin lagi ya...

Then, what about this? :)

arttm!!!

Pernah nggak ngebayangin lagu jelek, yang kalo dinyanyikan seseorang, jadi terdengar beda dan bagus? Nah, semacam itulah magic-nya Nick Santino, vokalis A Rocket To The Moon. Lagu-lagu ARTTM nggak nge-rock, pop banget dan kebanyakan lembut. Liriknya romantis parah lagi. :')

Nah, saya pernah mendengar 2 lagu di-cover oleh ARTTM; yaitu Forever and Always dari Taylor Swift dan Single Ladies dari Beyonce. Nah, lagu yang mereka cover ini emang aslinya bagus sih, tapi hasil cover mereka bikin lagulagu itu jadi 'beda' lho. Coba deh dengerin. Nick Santino keren banget deh pokoknya!!!!!!!!! Dan ARTTM secara keseluruhan tentunya Te O Pe Be Ge Te!

spoiler! ini nih salah satu lirik dari lagunya ARTTM, Like We Used To

I can feel her breath as she's sleeping next to me
Sharing pillows and cold feet
She can feel my heart
Fall asleep to it's beat
Under blankets and warm sheets
If only I could be in that bed again
If only it were me instead of him

Does he watch your favorite movies
Does he hold you when you cry
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts
When you've seen it a million times
Does he to sing all your music
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things like I used to

14 months and 7 days ago
Oh, I know you know how we felt about that night
Just your skin against the window
Oh, you took it slow
And we both know
It should have been me inside that car
It should have been me instead of him
In the dark

Does he watch your favorite movies
Does he hold you when you cry
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts
When you've seen it a million times
Does he sing to all your music
While you dance to purple rain
Does he do all these things like I used to

I know love
(I'm a sucker for that feeling)
Happens all the Time, love
(I Always end up feeling cheated)
You're on my mind, love
(Oh, darling I know I'm not needed)
And that happens all the time, love

Will he love you like I loved you
Will he tell you everyday
Will he make you feel like you're invincible with every word he'll say
Can you promise me if this one's right
Don't throw it all away
Can you do all these things
Will you do all these things like we used to
Oh, like we used to

Kenapa sih saya suka banget dengan band-band indie macam ini? Saya juga nggak tau. Hehe. Saya sekarang lagi hobi browsing dan nyari-nyari band indie yang meng-cover lagu-lagu pop. Ada beberapa yang bikin lagu aslinya jadi berasa ancur, ada yng malah bikin lagu aslinya jadi keren banget!!!

Coba deh dengerin:
Woe Is Me, covering Ke$ha's Tik Tok
Mayday Parade, covering PCD's When I Grow Up and Jason Derulo's In My Head
Silverstein, covering Apologize
Amely, covering Miley Cyrus's The Climb
I Hate My Ex, covering Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me
Breathe Carolina, covering Jay Sean's Down

^_______________^

not even crusader

Hwaaaa. Dini hari, saya lagi semangat banget nih... :D

Baru aja selesai nonton Robin Hood.
Gak gaul banget ya, nontonnya telat luar biasa.

Anyway, saya kagum sama film ini, suer.
Film robin hood sebelum-sebelumnya selalu menceritakan sepak terjang master pencuri yang jago memanah ini dalam menyejahterakan masyarakat.
Film yang saya tonton ini berbeda!!!
Film ini menceritakan kisah sebelum akhirnya robin dikenal sebagai master pencuri.



Dia adalah salah satu pemanah terbaik dalam masa pemerintahan Raja Arthur-yang terkenal selalu menang dalam perang. Pemanah bukanlah suatu jabatan yang membanggakan seperti ksatria atau prajurit. Suatu saat, Raja menanyakan Robin tentang perang yang selalu dimenangkannya, dan Robin menjawab bahwa kelakuan raja bukanlah hal yang baik dan Tuhan tidak akan menyenangi kegiatan perang kalau hasilnya hanyalah pertumpahan darah. Robin dan beberapa temannya dipasung, dan tidak diizinkan mengikuti perang hari berikutnya. Malang nasib Sang Raja, ia tewas di tangan tukang masak asal Prancis yang kebetulan memanahnya.

Robin dan teman-temannya kabur dari lokasi peperangan. Di jalan mereka menemukan pasukan Raja Arhtur yang tewas dibantai oleh pasukan prancis dalam perjalanan mereka membawa mahkota kembali ke kerajaan. Robin dan teman-temannya pun menyamar sebagai prajurit dan menumpang kapal ke London. Ia menyerahkan mahkots itu kepada Ibu Suri. Akhirnya diangkatlah raja baru, saudara kandung Arthur, John yang tidak memiliki sedikitpun bakat memimpin.

Robin dan teman-temannya kemudian meninggalkan London dan menetap di Nottingham. Sementara itu, pengkhianat Inggris, mencari-cari Robin. Robin disuruh menyamar menjadi Sir Loxley oleh seorang bapak yang anaknya tewas dibantai pasukan prancis. Lama-kelamaan, identitas Robin terlacak juga oleh pihak mereka. Sementara itu, di London, Raja John panik karena mengetahui adanya pengkhianat di kerajaannya dan informasi mengatakan bahwa Prancis akan segera menyerang inggris.

Akhirnya meletuslah perang di pantai tempat prancis merencanakan untuk mendaratkan pasukan mereka. Robin akhirnya berhasil membunuh Godfrey, Sang pengkhianat Inggris. Hal ini menyebabkan Robin dielu-elukan oleh rakyat inggris. Ia dianggap sebagai penyelamat Inggris. Raja John tidak bisa menerima hal ini, ia cemburu karena rakyat justru lebih bangga terhadap pemanah tidak penting dibandingkan dirinya yang seorang raja.

Akhirnya Raja John memerintahkan masyarakat untuk mengejar dan memburu Robin Longstride yang dikenal dengan nama ROBIN HOOD. Sejak saat itulah robin hidup diam-diam dan merampok pemerintah yang semena-mena demi kepentingan orang banyak.

Saya kagum terhadap beberapa makna dari film ini.
Robin bukanlah ksatria, dia adalah pemanah, golongan yang tidak terhomat bahkan walaupun dia sudah membahayakan nyawa sendiri untuk melindungi Raja. Akan tetapi, kebijaksanaannya membuat Robin menjadi sosok yang disegani dan dipatuhi. :)
Kita bisa belajar dari sini. Walaupun kita ini seorang pemimpin, tapi kalau kita tidak menunjukkan sikap yang pantas sebagai seorang pemimpin, sama saja, kita tidak akan dihormati sedikitpun oleh orang di sekitar kita.

Buat semuanya yang belum nonton film ini, saya rekomendasikan banget deeeeh. :)

"If you're building for the future, you need to keep your foundations strong, laws of the land enslave the people to a king who demands loyalty but offers nothing in return, I've been to the South of France, Palestine and back, you build a kingdom the same way you build a cathedral from the ground up!"

"We can't repay our good luck with bad grace, it invites darkness."

kiri depan!

Welcome to the beauty of parijs van java!
That's what i said to myself when i arrived in Bandung.

I am not used to live the metropolis world actually, but, here i am now.
I'm a part of this city now! And this is a reality.

But i did find a thing that is so annoying in this city.
AND WHAT THAT COULD BE ANYWAY???

ANGKOT, saudara-saudara...

jengjengdungcekcek biiiip biiiiip...

Yak. Kendaraan semacam ini bukan hal yang baru untuk saya. Semasa saya SMA dan SMP saya sudah menggunakan angkot sebagai salah satu alat transportasi.

Saat saya masih duduk di bangku SMP, saya biasa menggunakan angkot sebagai alat transportasi saat saya ingin mengunjungi rumah teman. (Hehehe...) Tarifnya, sangat terkenal, jauh-dekat seribu perak.

Saat SMA, angkot menjadi semakin sering saya gunakan. Saya harus menggunakan angkot untuk bisa mencapai kota sibolga yang notabene mrnjadi tempat saya membeli berbagai kebutuhan sehari-hari dan MAKANAN tentunya.

Naaah, semenjak kuliah, angkot seperti menjadi bagian dari diri saya. Kenapa? Saya harus menumpang angkot kalau mau mencapai kampus. (Sebenarnya kalau mau kemana-mana saya memang harus menggunakan angkot sih...) Saya terkejut luar biasa ketika membayar tarif angkot sebesar Rp. 1500 untuk biaya perjalanan dari kos ke kampus. Harga yang sangat mahal menurut saya. (Sewaktu SMA, dengan jarak sekitar 23 kilometer antara sibolga-pandan, saya hanya perlu membayar Rp. 1000). Jarak dari kos ke kampus sepertinya tidak sampai 10 menit, dan saya harus membayar harga demikian mahal. Syok rasanya. Bisa-bisa uang saya habis hanya untuk membayar ongkos pulang-pergi dari kampus. -___- SAYANGNYA...Setelah saya amati, ternyata tarif angkot di kota besar memang sangat mahal. 1500 perak adalah harga yang cukup wajar untuk perjalanan kurang dari sepuluh menit.

Saya memperhatikan beberapa perilaku supir angkot di bandung, dan banyak diantaranya yang sangat tidak saya sukai. Pertama, tradisi nge-tem tentunya. Penyakit macam ini tidak hanya menjadi penyakit supir angkot di kota bandung, nyaris dimana-mana supir angkot hobi meminggirkan kendaraan mereka dan menunggu sampai angkot mereka penuh, barulah mereka jalan kembali. Penumpang yang sedang terburu-buru tentunya akan kesal luar biasa dengan tingkah semacam ini.

Yang kedua, adalah sikap tidak jujur dari supir angkot. Saya sering sekali mengalami ini. Misalkan tarif saya biasanya 1500, tapi saya membayar dengan uang 2000, eeeeh, si supir bukannya memberikan kembalian malah langsung ngeloyor. Sialan kan? Wahai para supir angkot, tolong lah, apa susahnya memberikan uang kembali yang benar kepada penumpang kalian????!!!!!!!!

Ketiga, saya sangat kesal dengan supir angkot yang mencari penumpang walaupun sudah tidak ada tempat duduk yang memadai di dalam angkot. Ini terasa sangat menyebalkan. Memangnya mereka tidak kasihan dengan penumpang? Duduk tidak nyaman, gerah, sesak... -_- Bukannya udah ada peraturan yang menjelaskan berapa jumlah penumpang maksimal???????


Yak, sejauh ini, itu saja kekesalan yang saya rasakan terhadap dunia perangkotan kota bandung.

jadilah supir yang baik! cayoooo! (lho?)

Saya harap ada kesadaran oleh para supir angkot sendiri; jangan mentang-mentang banyak yang membutuhkan anda, anda jadi tidak memperhatikan kenyamanan penumpang. Kan kita sama-sama manusia. :)

new music, worth to listen

Nah...
Kalau orang bertanya, apakah kamu suka musik? Saya akan menjawab, YA. Tetapi saya akan merasa was-was dengan pertanyaan yang akan diajukan selanjutnya. Umumnya mereka akan bertanya, "Bisa main alat musik apa?" Lalu saya hanya bisa sedikit tersenyum miris.
Yah, saya seorang penikmat musik, bukan berarti saya bisa bermain musik, kan?

Bapak saya bisa dikatakan musisi multi-talenta. Beliau eks-gitaris sebuah band yang dibentuk di masa SMA, dan, yah, EKSIS. Sebut saja gitar, keyboard, bass, drum, dan biola. Bapak bisa dengan mahir memainkan semua alat musik itu. Saat saya berada di rumah, saya pasti mendengarkan Bapak bermain gitar. Sangat menyenangkan.

ini nih bapak saya... :D

Saya pernah mencoba bermain gitar, tetapi, jujur saja, jari yang pendek dan kecil-kecil ini benar-benar kurang cocok digunakan untuk menekan senar. Saya jadi malas karena kesulitan memindahkan jari-jari ke fret yang jauh. Alhasil, saya cuma bisa memainkan nada-nada dasar tanpa adanya improvisasi sedikitpun. -___-

Oke, postingan saya hari ini bukan curcol tentang derita saya.
Ada beberapa hal yang benar-benar sudah saya tunggu dan akhirnya muncul. YEYEYE!

Yak, yang pertama tentu saja, SINGLE PERTAMA GOOD CHARLOTTE UNTUK ALBUM CARDIOLOGY SUDAH RILIS!!! *excited parah* :D

ihiiiy! :D

akhirnya yang ditunggu-tunggu datang juga. Good Charlotte adalah band unk yang musiknya sangat saya sukai, lirik-lirik lagunya bagus, dan yah, dulu saya sangat terinspirasi dengan style mereka yang gotik itu.

sekarang nggak gotik lagi sih. ngga terlalu.

Judul single nya adalah LIKE IT'S HER BIRTHDAY yang bisa di dengarkan di http://www.myspace.com/goodcharlotte beserta video nya.



Selanjutnya ada 2 single dari MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE yang akhirny rilis.


Musiknya MCR banget, dan videonya asli konyol. Video untuk single Na Na Na yang diambil dari album baru mereka Danger Days bisa dilihat di http://www.mychemicalromance.com/splash dan untuk lagu The Only Hope For Me Is You bisa didengarkan di http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xAzqKEYaCs :)

2 minggu yang lalu saya mendengarkan beberapa lagu daris eorang penyanyi asal israel yang juga seorang gay, Ivri Lider.

hot guy is a gay. shoot.

Saya sangat merekomendasikan JESSE dan WHISKEY PRINCE. 2 lagu itu sangat berbeda genre, tapi dua-duanya asik buat didengar. Bisa di dengar di www.myspace.com/ivriliderreal :)

The Ring Of Solomon

Long time no see, my dearest blog. :)
ahaha.
I've been so busy with my daily routine on campus. well, not really. just to make it a little bit dramatic. :D

anyway...
i had read a great news about my lovely novelist Jonathan Stroud, yes, the one who created the bartimaeus trilogy. novels of the sarcastic djinny.

first, i have to tell you guys about why i love this novel so much! maybe i had told you on some later posts, but, i have to tell it again i guess. :)
Well, i really love the way Jonathan Stroud describe Bartimaeus and the other characters in this book. Bart is a djinn who loves to give his master sarcastic comments, he's arrogant, he hates most wizard except Ptolemy. Jonathan wrote the dialogue of Bart in a nice way and it's totally amusing. :) Readers will be laugh-out-loud-ing when reading his words. Ow, i'm promise this book won't disappoint you guys! Read it.

Here's some review i got from a few sources...

"It is 950 B.C.E., and King Solomon rules Jerusalem with a steely hand; a hand on which gleams a magic ring of immense and unforgiving power. Solomon has just begun work on his marvelous temple, charging Khaba, a formidable magician in his royal court, to oversee its construction. The workforce is an ill-behaved bunch of demons, a particularly unruly djinni named Bartimaeus among them. True to form, Bartimaeus promptly gets kicked off the temple project and assigned the even more miserable task of hunting bandits in the desert. There he crosses paths with Asmira, a highly skilled and loyal captain of the Queen of Sheba’s guard, on a suicidal mission to save her country from Solomon’s imminent attack. Of course, Bartimaeus has no intention of helping her. That is, until Asmira makes him an offer he cannot refuse. . . .

A spellbinding addition to Jonathan Stroud’s New York Times bestselling Bartimaeus audiobooks, The Ring of Solomon brims with dazzling wit, unforgettable characters, and powerful themes of freedom and slavery, with or without magical bonds."

"A few days ago I wrote an article Banned Books Week: The Amulet of Samarkand featuring the amazingly fun work of Jonathan Stroud.

I did some poking around the internet(s) to make sure my research was correct. I don’t like to offend people unless there is merit to it. At any rate, I also ran across this little gem: Jonathan Stroud is publishing a fourth book to the Bartimaeus trilogy!

It is titled The Ring of Solomon!

Throughout the trilogy, the djinni Bartimaeus left footnotes behind that alluded to many aspects of his 5000+ year history of being used by magicians for their own ends. Readers grew more and more curious about the past of Bartimaeus and the adventures that came before. Great fodder for great stories. It appears as though Jonathan Stroud has decided to tell some of those adventures, taking the setting of this next novel back before the birth of Christ.

Here is the summary for The Ring of Solomon by Jonathan Stroud:

Bartimaeus, everyone’s favorite (wise-cracking) djinni, is back in book four of this best-selling series. As alluded to in the footnotes throughout the series, Bartimaeus has served hundreds of magicians during his 5,010 year career.

Now, for the first time, fans will go back in time with the djinni, to Jerusalem and the court of King Solomon in 950s BC. Only in this adventure, it seems the great Bartimaeus has finally met his match. He’ll have to contend with an unpleasant master and his sinister servant, and runs into just a “spot” of trouble with King Solomon’s magic ring….

I am really excited about this new book. I’ve been reading some heavy epic fantasy recently and this fun, young adult novel is the antidote to bring me back to balance!"

Oookaaaay. You guys, lets pray that the e-book will be published soon! :)

Happy Raya!!!

HAPPY EID MUBARAK!!!

MINAL AIDIN WAL FAIDZIN

:)

FROM OCHA, WITHOUT FAMS, -_-

I'M STILL A KID

*GAK NYAMBUNG*

move!

halo!
finally writing again after a long break. -_-
i am so sorry.

Many things happened to me since the last time i wrote a post.
you know, for the past few months i had convinced myself to continue my study in University of Gadjah Mada, majoring in international relations. But, i didn't know why, but i want to try another chance. I took a chance by following a National Entrance Exam. And, well, miracle happened and i passed it. I got a chance to join an Institute of Technology, majoring in Pharmacy. If i ask people about which one is better, they will definitely choose International Relations. I knew it. Studying IR will lead you to join the Government and got a great position in the country. But i didn't know why, i finally choose pharmacy. People might say: ow stupid you, you're gonna be just a drugs-seller. I don't care. My parents had taken a leap of faith on me, i mustn't fail. I have to be success. Pray for me....

pengen nulis aja

Long time no see, dearest blog.
I had spent 4 weeks watching world cup matches and 3 weeks hanging with my sis.
World cup ended on July 12th, born a new champion, Spain. They 'killed' my team, Germany, on the semi-final. I hate it so much. Germany had played impressively against England and Argentina. But they still didn't make it to be the world champion. Blah, it doesn't matter now. At least the finished third. :)

Nah, tepat di hari Jerman mengukuhkan diri di tempat ketiga itulah, Marmot balik ke Pandan. Kota yang jauhnya 8 jam dari rumah (kalo ditempuh dengan mobil) adalah tempat sekolah kami, well-sekarang eks-sekolah ku. Liburannya yang berusia 3 minggu udah tamat, berakhir, selesai. Kasihan, tapi tentunya aku lebih kasihan.

Dari semua teman yang ada, aku paling suka dengan marmot, yah dia bukan teman sih, tapi saudari. Kami sering banget bikin lelucon bareng, dan ketawa sendiri karenanya. Di hari-hari terakhir, tercetuslah kalimat 'Just Insane Please', yang membuatku terinspirasi untuk membuat grup lawak, atau lebih tepat disebut duo lawak. -_-"

Nah. sejak marmot pulang, aku bosan setengah mati, dan nyaris setiap hari mukaku tertekuk-tekuk. Mau gimana coba, bayangkan kalian sendirian tanpa teman ngobrol dan melawak, padahal kalian adalah pelawak luar biasa! Aku sampai2 ngobrol dengan pantulanku di cermin. gila kan??

Mungkin aku masih ingat percakapan kami yang aneh...
"Mot tau kau, ada yang lucu. Kmaren itu aku mau nyuci piring, tapi yang ku buka keran ini (keran yang salah-kalo dibuka aliran airnya ngalir ke atas, bukan ke bawah). Jadi terkejut la aku. Kubilang Tibun ga bisa aku nyuci karena kerannya rusak."
"Siap tu?"
"Siap tu di buka tibun kerannya(keran yang benar), eh ngalir..."
*ngakak*

Yah, selain itu, marmot juga heboh foto2. HP ku penuh dengan fotonya yang hancur semua. Sampai2 sering hang gitu. -_-"

world cup group surprises

Aah. Long time no see, dearest blog. :) I had so much time these few past days, but i didn't write any entry. Why? Just didn't want to. :p Sorry, world of bloggers. I'm a betrayer...

Anyway. The world cup had started in June 11th. It takes place on South Africa. I watched the opening on a TV channel. And was very upset that time. Okay, i enjoyed the performance of local artists. But, oh, what the heck was that? an opening without the official world cup anthem singers? I really wanted to see Shakira and K'naan. I blamed the TV channel, and almost cursed it! I wanted to see that goddess of Shakira! A beautiful latin singer with great voice and dancing ability. And, ow, just to make it clear, her body is what i always dream of to be mine! :( For Godness sake, i was dying of wishing to watch her performance. And K'naan, his song of 'Wavin Flag' is soooooo great! I love it, and i wanted to see K'naan performance! Poor me, poor me, What a pity i am!


The opening match that time of course was The Republic of South Africa against Mexico, The first match of Group A, and ended draw. (1-1) Well, actually, the Mexican would have won the match, if another goal they scored didn't considered as an offside. I thought that was the ref's fault. Well, actually the Mexican didn't caught on an offside. There was an african player stood right below the goalpost. But, as we know, referee's the god of the game. They decide everything.

Until now, the matches in the World Cup had given us great surprises. I'm gonna tell you all of them.
First, France, which, we had known as a great football team, was dumped from the world cup competition. They didn't win any match of the group, and the worst was, they lost against RSA. The went home with only 1 point, and stood on the bottom of Group A standings. I always respect this team. Especially because of my admiration of Zinedine Zidane. But, well, maybe this is not the time for France to show off. Just wait. :)
Second, the Europe Champion of 2004 was defeated by our lovely representative of Asian Zone, The South Korea. Well, South Korea, i admit, is the strongest asian team. But i never thought that they would defeat Greece!
Third, in group C, the surprise still show it's teeth. England, we've known as one of the strongest team, was drew against Algerie. Aw, c'mon, all of us might thought that they would win right? Or we were? But, no doubt, England passed the Group Phase and was now the runner up of Group C.
Fourth, My lovely team, GERMANY was DEFEATED by Serbians. I cursed them. They made Miroslav Klose had to leave the field because of RED CARDED! I CURSED THOSE SERBIANS!!!


Germany played with only 10 man after Klose's red card, and Jovanovic scored a goal just few minutes after the incident. I almost CRYYYYYYYY. I hate to see my team being defeated anytime! But, Alhamdulillah, they finally passed the group qualification. I had crush again on football players. Not with Bastian Schweinsteiger, Not with Toni Kroos, not with Phillip Lahm, but with an immigrant player names Mesut Ozil. He is a moslem and always read Al Qur'an before games.


Uwwww. I love him! (PS: Alhamdulillah, the sebians got beaten by the Socceroos, the didn't pass the group phase)
Fifth, Italia was drew against Paraguay and New Zealand. I didn't know what the heck happened, they played great! It was italia. I-T-A-L-I-A. The owner of World throne. The master of World Cup 4 years ago. Well, I hate them just because they didn't let Buffon play!
Sixth, Portugal defeated the North Korea for 7-0. Damn cool! That was a murder! They ate North Korea. Blah. But i still hate Christiano Ronaldo, who was being worshipped by almost all people, especially girls in the world. I hate him, so much. Don't ask me why, i got too many reasons to be told.
Seventh, the holy master of Fottball, Spain, who had defeated GERMANY on the Euro final, was beaten by Switzerland. (1-0). Well, that was their fault, underestimated Switz, and didn't let Torres play since the first minute.

I think, i'm gonna post another entries of World Cup later. I want to enjoy the matches. ;)

news news...

Morning... Or, should i say Good Day? Ah, whatever...

I'm so excited, on the other hand i'm sad though. You know, i woke up and immediately met my garfield to browse the internet. And i remembered about 2 bands that are my most fave ones since i was a Junior High student. They are Good Charlotte and My Chemical Romance...

You must have known the good news, though. They were making new albums! Yeah. New albums! Holy shit!

I read wiki and found out that the title of GC's 5th album will be Cardiology. And they said they will bring back the pop punk on show, baby! Woohoo! :D Here's what i found in wiki.


---Cardiology is the fifth album by pop punk band Good Charlotte. After various updates and uncertainty, it was finally announced the album would be released August/September 2010. Certain disruptions in the release involve the decision to re-record the entire album.

On December 3, 2008, Kerrang! magazine announced that Good Charlotte would be releasing their fifth studio album, "Cardiology" in 2009. The title of which, according to Benji Madden, comes from the lyrical content of the album, which he explained: "all is connected to the heart". At the time, Madden also added that they had already written 20 songs for the album, and are said to be heading back to their pop-punk roots.

Describing the sound to MTV news, Joel Madden said it would sound a lot like Blink-182. Joel went on to say in the same MTV interview that "There's nothing dance-y on the record, though, at all, which is different from our last one," further implying a movement away from the sound of Good Morning Revival.---

I wonder how it will sounds like. I hope it will be like the 2nd though, but they said it will be like the 3rd. So, well, at least i still recognize the music. I love the single I Just Wanna Live in the 3rd album. But on the 2nd, all of em are my faves. :)

And the 2nd news is also the album of My Chemical Romance. I love this emo punk band. They loved to use gothic make ups. I love goth. :D But i became sad when i found this article, it was taken from mtv.com. :( Read it. you'll understand.

---Over the weekend, My Chemical Romance fans got a bit of a shock when a page on MTV.com appeared, listing both a title and release date for the band's long-in-the-works new album.

According to the page, MCR would return on June 29 with The Midnight Curfew, a new album on a new label: Pride Music. This seemed odd for a number of reasons, chiefly the fact that frontman Gerard Way had recently been tweeting about the title of the album, hinting that he would be announcing it "in a special way this time ... maybe some sort of event."

Info about the new album's title and release date quickly began spreading, until bassist Mikey Way took to his Twitter to defuse the whole thing, writing that "the new album is not titled Midnight Curfew. That is an unauthorized biography DVD that we have nothing to do with. Buyer beware."

And so, it is. The "Curfew" DVD can actually be pre-ordered on Amazon.com right now.

So how did "Curfew" end up on MTV.com? Well, data for upcoming releases is automatically pulled from AllMusic.com, which does, in fact, have a page listing for the DVD. MTV News' e-mails to AllMusic seeking comment were not returned by press time.

Digging a little further — using the product code for the DVD listed on AllMusic — it turns out that "Curfew" is being actually being released through Chrome Dreams, a U.K.-based media company that sells biographical books, DVDs and CDs of everyone from Lady Gaga to 50 Cent. Under their "Pride Music" label, they've recently released a two-disc "unauthorized" look at the making of Guns 'N Roses Chinese Democracy album and a retrospective DVD about Kate Bush's Hounds of Love. By press time, the company has not responded to an e-mail seeking clarification and/or comment about "The Midnight Curfew."

And through all this, we still don't know the actual title (or release) date for My Chem's new album. E-mails to MCR's actual label, Reprise Records, were not returned.---

I thought i'd found a good news about MCR, but i was wrong. It's a bad one! :(

the best part of a novel-sarcastic comments

Hello,hello, hello. :) How's world today? Excellent. Everything's doing fine. Right?

Anyway, i spent 2 hours reading about awatara Vishnu again today. And, it was quite different to what i've read before. What i read was about Vishnu's awataras that were not really known by commoners. Such as, Vishnu as Fish, Vishnu as Turtle an so on. But i don't say that the stories were not interesting. I always love stories of Hindu's Gods. :)

Ow, ow, guess what!
Tomorrow's gonna be a really exciting day. The Result of Entrance Exam known as UMB is gonna be announced tomorrow! My fellas and buddies had worked hard and whatever they will get tomorrow, i hope they'll deserve it.

Ya Allah, please give them the best. You know what's best for everyone.

Today, i'd like to tell you guys about the novels i like the most. On the first place, no need to ask because everyone that loves fantasy novel in my age will have the same choice as me, it's the Harry Potter by JK Rowling. These books had brought the magic stuffs came to live. She (JK Rowling) made it looked like real world of magic is exist, but we just can't see it. Cool. I was hypnotized when i read those books. But i think the spell now has been a bit sallow. I'm no more too addicted to it.

After the 7th book of Harry Potter was released, i was so upset. That time, i thought i would never have any book to be waited for. That was why i turned into a comic addict. I forgot novels, never tried to buy another fiction or fantasy novel again after the Harry Potter era ended until I was on my 1st grade of Senior High School. I borrowed the first book of The Bartimaeus Trilogy from my room-mate at the boarding house. And, voila! I love it. The story was about a kid-wizard, named Nathaniel who called Bartimaeus the Djinn from the other side. Nathaniel was a student of Mr Underwood, his master who raised him and be his mentor. Nathaniel was actually had a great ability, but his master never realized it, and always ask him to do simple stuffs. He didn't realize that Nathaniel was capable to call creatures from the other side. One day, a man named Simon Lovelace pissed Nathaniel off and, Nathaniel promised himself that he will kill that man. And, well, that's why he called Bartimaeus. Ow, i really love this first book. I forgot to tell you, the title is Amulet of Samarkand. :D sorry.

The second book titled The Golem's Eye. The story was about a young teen Nat (who had changed his name into John Mandrake) occupied assistant of Ms Whitwell in the Ministries of Magic was trying to figured out the problem about a great creature that destroyed whole London. He asked Bartimaeus to help him solve the case. In this 2nd book, Nat will meet Kitty Jones, the non-wizard girl who will be the important character of book 3rd.

Book 3rd titled Ptolemy's Gate. Who was Ptolemy? Well, in book 1 and 2, we will know about him. He was Bartimaeus's Master in Alexandria so long ago. He was Barty's fave. Barty loved to use Ptolemy's form to appear. Ptolemy was the greatest Master, he never asked Bartimaeus, or that time his name was Rekhyt, to do something that can risk others' life. One day, when He and Barty and other djinns was walking around a market, His brother who had the same name as him, attacked him because he was afraid to him. He was afraid if Ptolemy will take his throne. So, they ran away and stopped at a temple. Ptolemy was badly injured, Barty really wanted to get him away from enemies and cured his injuries. But when the army came to the temple, Ptolemy released Bartimaeus and brought him back to the other side. Bartimaeus never found the master that would risk his own life for a creature that usually be a sacrifice and slave like him, the djinn. I almost cry when read this 3rd book. I really didn't expect the ending. Really. You have to read it, so that you'll understand.



Oh, i also love the way Bartimaeus talk. :) Just read, and you'll understand what i mean.

My other recommendation is Skulduggery Pleasant...

I had read the 1st book, and when i was searching for other books of it in the internet, i can't find the other series sold in Indonesia. I was so upset. I am so upset. This one is marvelous. I really love it. The story was about a 12 years old girl named Stephanie who was dreaming for her life to be more unusual, and she got it. One day, a man attacked her at her uncle's house and a skeleton came to help her. Since then, She and that skeleton, Skulduggery, caught in some problems that could caused death. Stephanie was really excited with that. These two was arguing a lot, and that's the perfect reason for me to love this book. Their arguments were funny. :D



Ah, well, those are the books. I will post another recommendations later. :) Fantasy rules!!!!

about the Serial, the sucks stuffs and melancholia

Hi there world. Whaddup? Everything's okay? :D Very well then, i had forgotten the last time i wrote something for this blog? Was it this week or last week? Ah, never mind. That's not necessary for us to remember. Besides, i can still figure it out from the data, right?

Anyway. I spend this whole week watched movies and read comics. I even asked my friend to buy me some DVD so that i won't be bored at home. Well, she stayed for these 3 months at Medan, joining an intensive course for the preparation of the National Entrance Exam for Universities, and i asked her if she would help me for buying 5 DVDs, and Alhamdulillah, she said YES. :D I went to Medan yesterday and took the cassettes. After that i asked her if she would like to join me to go to the bookstore which is pretty close by her boarding house, and, we went there together, spend probably an hour there, and then i we (my driver and i) drove her home. :( I have no enough time to stay and just have a little chit chat with her.

Ow, i forgot, i also spent my time at home browsing the internet and read about Hindu's Gods at wiki. It was so interesting. :D I actually only interested in Sri Krishna (at first), who was believed as the reincarnation of Vishnu. I always watch LITTLE KRISHNA series on a channel every time it is showed. The blue-skinned little kid with cute face who beats evils. Ooooooh! I really love this serial. Okay, well, after abou 4 times i watched, then i browsed the internet to read the full stories about Him. And, after read one part (Krishna's part), i was fascinated to read about the other Gods of Hindus. All of them were connected to each other. I now know that Krishna was the 8th awatara of Vishnu. The parents on the serial aired on TV was not His true parents. Ahh, long story! But interesting! (I'm gonna write one post full of them!!!!) Well, i dunno about you guys, but i do love those stuffs of history. :) I always love history. My friend, Ratna, and I had ever decided majoring in Archeology, but then our brain functioned again, and we duped those silly thoughts. If i were in a great country, a country that is really appreciate their histories, i may think about it again. But, hello, i can make sure that i'd be nothing after i graduate from it. Maybe yes, i can be an Archeologist, but, it's gonna be so much difficult to get jobs. But, it doesn't mean that i will underestimate others who are majoring in Archeology. I just can't convinced myself that i can get great job after graduate. So, i didn't take it.

Ah, if you guys want to know about the life of an Archeologist, just watch 4 series of INDIANA JONES... :) Or maybe National Treasures.

Hmmm. Guys, i am now a little bit melancholic. I don't like this, this is not like me. But, something was bothering me these days.

I did got very upset. There were 3 things that caused my heart to break. Ah, not that bad actually. First, somebody pissed me off. She said that i loved to mock people too much. She said that nobody likes to be mocked, even myself. I knew that was true, but why did she have to told me like that like she never did that kind of thing. Second, a boy told me that i was so rude. I sent him an sms "Oh. Ok." and he said i was RUDE!!! What the heck??? I was just wake up that time and i think it's quite normal if i sent him a short one because i was still sleepy, right? And, the third, i saw the photograph of a couple that really hurt me. No need to talk about them. :)

And now, the real purpose of making this post. I don't really know, romantic things are considered friends to melancholic things or not. But i think those are just the same. They both make us weak. Romantic things can melt us up like a heated caramel. And melancholic things will probably make us lost some tears.
I listened to many songs, and i chose these as the most romantic ones. :)

1. Owl city-Vanilla Twilight

All of his music are my fave. I'm not addicted, i just love the music. It's calm. :)











2. Boys like Girls-Thunder
What am i supposed to do if a guy sing this to me? :D















3.Charice ft. Iyaz-Pyramid
I like this. Sweet, and easy-listened. Catchy, and, i love pyramids. :)














NOTE:
Some people said that Libras are considered romantic persons. I dunno. I'm sucks in having a relationship. Not only for mate, but also friends and families. I just don't know how to act. I can't pretend like i am concern with people to show them i love them so much. Ah. Wish me luck. I really want to figure out what's right for me to do.

meaningful lesson

Another day of an idler life. An empty one, a boring one, what else? I'm getting sick of myself. I woke up at 1 pm today. And went to see my garfield and browsed the internet. I forgot about taking a bath and having breakfast. -_-

Anyway, i actually wanted to post this yesterday. But, the news about the Freedom Flotilla made me mad, that i forgot what to do that time. Sorry. But, they didn't show us that they were educated people! Shot at the ship full of volunteers, and, did you hear about that 19 of them were dead??? Oh, God! Allah told us that they would never have their own country area, and would be the clan that will always live in greed. Well, Allah sure will give them the HELL as the punishment for what they've done. (I have no plan to post anything about this problem, but, since i am now a member of international relations studies, then i think i have to be more concern about international issues and discuss about them.)

Okay. Back to the crux of the matter. Raison d'etre to write these post. :D Yesterday, i was looking around my home's book collections, and found 3 interesting books. Not to be read, but, interesting.

The first i found was the P4 book. It is a book that was really popular during Soeharto's regime. It is full of the doctrine of our ideology, Pancasila. I had read the story about the P4's raison d'etre. There was a traumatic event during the Soekarno's regime that were caused by irrelevancy ideology that Soekarno used. It was called Nasakom. And, that time, the communist party was the strongest party in Indonesia, and gave a great support for Soekarno. And, well, the stories i heard after that was quite difference at every story. I actually felt really sad about this fault of Soekarno. He is, until now, my most favorite Indonesia's President. I agree to his idea about not to create too many parties in Indonesia, because the people weren't ready for that kind of democracy. I do agree with him. We can see now, there are probably more than 50 parties exist in our country. You know what i thought about that number of parties? Every people in indonesia just want to be LEADERS. That's all. They don't really think about our well-beings. Even if there are some of them, they are just in small percent of all. I always think that Indonesia needs a Dictator. I know it sounds cruel, but that's what this country need. We don't need hundreds of people as our leader, who, of course, have different thoughts. We need only one leader that can really cover our country's problems. And we should be loyal to our leader, so that, her/his programs can be done well and increase our living standards.

Ehm, i am deviated, too far from the book. :D sorry. Well, i just don't think that book is still exist. I mean, that's right that i never heard any stories about extermination of the P4, but, yah, i never think it still exist. That book belonged to my Dad. It has his signature on it, on the first page. It's cover is yellow, or maybe orange, because, it's not new, and the color must had dimmed.

The second interesting book was my Grandfather's book. A medical book, in Dutch! Holy shit! My grandfather could write and speak Dutch! -_- Cool, isn't it. I mean, yeah, he could get it from the education in Dutchmen colonialism era, but, come on, he understood each words! I even saw some of his writing about diseases. :D Yes, my grandfather(from dad's side) was a really famous doctor in Slawi, our hometown. He loved to help people to be healthy, but he didn't pay much attention on his own health. I ever heard this funny thing about doctor. They're really concern about their patient, but they forget themselves. My Grandfather died on heart attack when i was still really young. Okay, still a baby. A cute one. His sons and daughters, none of them took medical study, nobody wanted to be a doctor. The sons (include my dad) preferred to be engineers. And, well, i don't really know about the daughters. One of my auntie opens a catering, though.

This book is must be the oldest of all in the shelves. The cover is from fabric. A black one. The pages are sooooo smooth! There are so many pictures inside. And, i knew it was a medical book because of the symbol of medical thing. A glass with a snake coil around it. :)

And, the last one and the most interesting one, is my dad's essay for his graduation. :) My dad was a student of National Institute of Technology in Bandung (itenas). He was majoring in Electronic Engineering, which is now one of the most famous studies.

Here's the book...


Well, i was interested to this book not because the contents. I know i love physic science, but Physic, NO! Actually, this book discuss about one of my most favorite lesson, about the electricity, i don't understand it. It's for the pros. Not for a commoner like me.

The interesting part is...This...


It is a dedication part of the book. Written by my dad himself on the bottom right corner. I am not a melancholic girl, but a almost dropped my tears when i saw this.

I always thought that everything that i got now is better and better than what my parents got in the past. I always thought that i had passed really hard difficulties. I thought that my assessment is the hardest one. But i was wrong. I have both my parents who are always support me. While my dad, has only his dad. My Grandfather, to support him. I never thought how would it feel like if i have no mother to support me. T_T I was too self-confident. My mom's struggle even far greater than mine. Her parents didn't have much money for her to continue her study. She was only a graduation of Senior High School. She is a genius of Math and Physic, you know! She has special abilities that should be left out because of economical reasons. What a moron i was! I always sigh everything that is not satisfy me. I never realize that i have everything to support me and get the best.

After saw this thing, i promised myself that I WILL DO CRAZY TO MAKE MY PARENTS TOTALLY PROUD OF ME. Just wait, dad, mom.

senandung pengangguran

SMA N 1 Matauli udah ngelepas siswa/siswinya angkatan XIV dalam Acara Prasetya Alumni bulan April lalu. Sebagian besar dari kami langsung nembak ke Medan, Jakarta atau Bandung buat bimbingan belajar, sebagian lagi mempersiapkan sekolah kedinasan dan sebagian kecil menganggur di kediamannya masing-masing. Aku dengan berat hati mengkategorikan diri di kelompok terakhir. Yak, si pengangguran.

Seminggu pertama, segala sesuatunya berjalan masih cukup normal. Yah, walaupun kalo bangun jam 9 di hari-hari aktif sekolah aku pasti jadi penunggu gerbang atau menambah catatan di kertas Pak Subar, tapi ini masih tergolong normal. Tidur jam 10 atau 11, dan bangun jam 9; kemudian langsung mandi dan sarapan. Sisanya, aku melototin si Garfield, atau main game. Sayangngnya, jam tidur gadis berusia 17 tahun yang malam ini terus bergeser. Minggu selanjutnya, aku tidur jam 1 dan bangun jam 11. Betapa mengagumkannya. Disaat orang lain udah nyaman dengan bantal, guling dan selimut, mataku masih melek dan pikiranku masih tajam kemana-mana. -_- Dan, pada minggu ketiga, dan berlanjut sampai sekarang, aku tidur antara jam 2 sampai jam 3, dan bangun jam 12 atau jam 1. Setelah bangun, sarapan, terus mandi. Telat sarapan mengakibatkan perutku gembung, dan penyakit WC-holic senantiasa menyerang. Sangat menyakitkan, dan menyedihkan.

Aku adalah orang yang benci olahraga, dan bergerak. Kegiatanku saban hari selama liburan cuma baca novel, ngemil, dengerin musik, nonton tv dan online. Tidak heran kalo sampai pagi buta pun aku ngga ngerasa letih dan ngantuk sama sekali. Aku sadar banget, inilah penyebab insomniaku selama ini. Tapi, ah, peduli setan lah. Aku emang malas olahraga, jadi mau gimana.

Sebenarnya, jalan-jalan bareng teman itu bisa aja jadi salah satu opsi untuk membuatku bergerak lebih banyak dan lelah, tapi, seperti yang udah dikatakan di atas tadi, teman-temanku semua BIMBEL. JAdi, inilah nasib seorang pengangguran. Cuma bisa ngeluh sendiri. Berharap mereka menemukan sesuatu yang bisa melenyapkan kejenuhan.

Beberapa hari yang lalu, ade'ku, marmot, bilang kalo dia dapat hari libur, dan mau pulang ke rumah. Tapi ternyata, ngga ada yang mau menemani dia pulang. (untuk memperjelas aja, jarak dari rumahku ke sekolah adalah 8-9 jam dengan mobil, dimana medan yang ditempuh sangat alami, yah,kalian ngertilah apa maksudnya). Jadi, setelah aku udah sempat jingkrak-jingkrak kesenangan karena bakal dapat teman, aku meratap di telepon waktu dia bilang ngga bisa pulang.
"De, kw ga jadi pulang ya?"
"Iya, dibilang Pak Mur, kami ga bertanggung jawab kalo pulang. Lagian, ga ada kawanku"
"Issssss, pulang la kw, kasian kali aku sendiri di rumah"
"Iya, akupun mau nya pulang. Kw jemputlah...."
"..." *matiin telepon*
Yah, gimanapun juga, aku ngga selera buat nempuh jarak 8 jam itu juga. Udah cukup 3 tahun aja.

Yah, beginilah jadinya. Sampai sekarang aku masih merana di rumah. Dengan jam tidur yang ngga jelas dan kegiatan yang monoton. Memprohatinkan memang, jadi pengangguran. Tapi syukurlah nganggurnya sebelum kuliah, daripada setelah kuliah......

NB: Untuk ade asuhku, agung, noh, aku pake Bahasa Indonesia. :P

i don't call it love :)

I reminded of a song lyric i had written 2 days after i left my school. I was inspired of my own story. I spent almost all my lovely 3 years in high school thinking of somebody. Who, i thought, loved me. I was so excited every time he sent me a message. I was so excited when he asked me to meet, even if he just wanted to talk about our school days. I was hypnotized, mesmerized.

I decided to tell him about my true feelings for him in our last day at school. At the school farewell. But, poor me, an hour before the farewell party was held, i knew about the truth. That the guy i dreamed of as my boyfriend had have a girlfriend, and the were official at 4 previous months. I was SO DESPERATE that time. I told all my girls about that, and they were sad for me.

I still wanted to tell that guy about my feelings. I was working on my phone, typing a long sms when the great thing that changed my life happened. There was a band, performed at that time. One of the member is a guy that had a crush on me the previous year. He was my best friend that time, and i felt so angry with his confession. We didn't talk to each other for about half and a year. Even if i looked at his eyes, he refused to see me. Well, this guy performed 2 songs with his band. And i always love the way he sing. And that time too, with no doubt. :)

The party was over. All of us were busy with hugs and cries and so many saddened things. I was just finished hugging my best girl friend when he was suddenly appear in front of me and laughing. I didn't realize what was happened, but I WAS CRYING LIKE HELL!!! I missed him so much. I was mumbling, cried on him, blamed him for everything that had happened in my life after he refused to talk to me. But he was only laugh and smiles. And told me how much he loved me and that it won't be changed. What could i say??? I just enjoyed his words. And kept it in my head and my heart as his promises.

He walked me back to the boarding house, but i asked him to go to our school lake and talk. :) He said, "what a flashback." and I laughed. Then, after we were talking, he finally told me a funny thing. "Our relationship will be a 20% friend, 20% lover, 20% enemy, 20% sibling and 20% not known." I laughed again, and agreed. He went home, and after I got on my room, I shouted for his name on the balcony, and saw him for (maybe) the last time.



I had forgotten about my hurt heart, those desperate feelings. All of them were just gone away. I was so excited having this guy back. :) We are still best friends. And i take full credit of that. I sent my sms to my former crush, and didn't feel sad at all. :D

Well, this the lyric i've made. :D

It's almost the end of our high school
there are so many things have changed
And we're attending farewell party
Then you sing a beautiful song

Party's over and you come to me
With a smile that i've been missing
You start to speak and i'm listen to
Yeah you say those words again

You say you love me, but i have known
You say you love me, my tears fall down
We both know we've started as best friend
But it's true love, baby, don't mind

I hold your hand for the last time
Cry out loud on your shoulder
And I tell you of how i hate you
But then we both just laugh

You say you love me, but i have known
You say you love me, my tears fall down
We both know we've started as best friend
But it's true love, baby, don't mind


I wanna spend what's left together
I wanna share my sadness and laughter
We both are friends that become lovers

You say you love me, but i have known
You say you love me, my tears fall down
We both know we've started as best friend
But it's true love, baby, don't mind

long kiss goodbye

I always love to listen to the music. I always bring my jukebox (bluey). Well. it is actually my lovely Nokia e63 cellphone with blue silicone casing. I update songs and playlists inside, not frequently. Just if i heard about new songs, or I still have much money to spend in the net.

I never define the music genres for myself to be listened to. And this time, i post one of my most favorite song in Japanese. Sung by Halcali, and was one of Naruto Shippuden Ending.

It tells us about somebody who regret so much that He/She couldn’t convey their feeling for someone who is actually mean something for him/her. It happened to me someday in the past. But, i am now just okay.

Kondo wa itsu aeru ka nante
Sonna kaoshite yoku ierutte
Omotteta yo nande darou
Nani mo ki ni naranai FURIshite
Ii wake suru nara kikou sama de
Tsunagatte taikara

Mou kao mo mitakunai megurokawazoi
Arienai tenkai odoru KEETAI
GOODBYE MEERU naraba wasuretai
“Hold me tight” but “dokka kietai”
Anytime shiberisugi no KY
Chirari miseru tsuyogari na “I cry”
Namida no kouka wa dore kurai?

Watashi na ri ni “ai saretai” afureru no ni kimi ga mienai
Nido to kimi ni aenai sonna ki ga suru n da…
Tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba mietara nai watashi tabun
Uso demo ii no ni “ikanai demo” ienai yo

Kushami suru to deru hen na koeto
Kusha kusha ni warau BUSAIKU na kao
Tomaranai ase me wo kosuru kuse
Dou setsu maranai AITSU no tokusei

Nitemo nitsukenai futari no SUTAIRU
Muda ni Shy SENSU wa yayanai
Uso tsuku toki no fukumi warai
UZAI tokku ni BAREBARE mendokusai

Tamatama kareshi gai nai TAIMINGU de
Hima tsubushi teido no koi tte
Tomodachi ni mo ii wakeshitete
Masaka watashi ga oikaketeru…nande?

Tsumaranai JOOKU wa ittsumo kudoku
Douko made mo tsuzuku aki aki na TOOKU
Sono tabi ROKKU kondo wa watashi kara Knock

Watashi na ri ni “ai saretai” afureru no ni kimi ga mienai
Nido to kimi ni aenai sonna ki ga suru n da…
Tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba mietara nai watashi tabun
Uso demo ii no ni “ikanai demo” ienai yo

Nigitteta te ga hanaretara
Kimi wa itsuka wasurechau no?
Watashi no koto

Watashi na ri ni “ai saretai” afureru no ni kimi ga mienai
Nido to kimi ni aenai sonna ki ga suru n da…
Tsutaetai no ni umai kotoba mietara nai watashi tabun
Uso demo ii no ni “ikanai demo” ienai yo

yummy

What do u think u see in the left side? Well, that’s a really delicious spare-time meal i usually have. :9 My mom loves cooking very much, and that is just one of her handmade.

This evening, a water pipe in my garage was broken. It spread water all over the place. My dad worked so hard to stop the sudden flood, but he didn’t make it. His shirt and shorts went wet. TOTALLY WET. Just like the real flood victim. Well, i tried to help, so My Mom and I both went to see the water tanks to stop the water flows. And, u know what? It did. The water stopped flowing. I understood my dad’s feeling. I BET HE WAS SO MAD.

And after the most exhausting thing like that, Mom went to the kitchen and cook this sandwich. With chocolates, cheese, strawberry jam and butter. :9 this one is so nice. Perfect to cure an exhausted feeling.

But, cooking this was not easy. The stove was difficult to be turned on. And was turned off itself without any reason. :/ This stove was really have no understanding with us. Anyway, i helped by cutting the choco-bar and cheese-bar into small and thin pieces. Mom turned the bread over and over on a frying pan. As you can see, the bread is burnt on many sides. But, well, after we finished it, and I was the one who tasted it first, it tasted very good.

German Hotties

I have no German blood on my family. Not even in my Grandgrandgrandgrandgrandfather’s. But i don’t need any connection just to love and adore those German hotties, right? :D

Okay, in the first place, Tom Kaulitz



Awww! :D I love this guy so much. He is a guitarist of one of my favorite band, Tokio Hotel. He is a twin brother of the vocalist, Bill Kaulitz. He was born on September 1st, 1989 in Liepzig, Germany. He loves hip hop music, when his band’s genre is glam-rock. He loves to appear in a rapper style. We can look at that sweet cornrow. He loves to change hairstyle. One more thing that makes me love this guy so much is because he doesn’t believe in true love. you know what i mean? He never take any serious in having a relationship with girls. :D That sounds crazy, I know. But, thats the charm! I have an ambition to meet him someday in Germany. :) Wish me luck!

Well then, in the 2nd place, here goes Toni Kroos



He is a young Germany National Football Team player and also a member of Bayern Leverkusen FC. :D He was born in Greifswald, on January 4th, 1990. I don’t know much about him, since i first knew him just 2 months ago. I am a freaky fan of Deutscher Fussball Bund, so i browsed for the team’s full squad for WC 2010 in South Africa, and found his name and his photo. My eyes always recognized good-looking boys, and i forced myself (it was 2 am that time) to search the info about this guy. And i found some. :P He’s a midfielder, the second position on my fave ones. (goalkeepers first) And, i hope he’ll do great on the team, because i’ve seen enough bad playing the German did during the WC qualification.

And, here, in the third place, I present Bastian Schweinsteiger



He’s the old squad member of DFB. He is now the second Germany captain, become a vice for Phillip Lahm, who is now the first captain because of Michael Ballack’s absence in WC 2010. He was born in Kobelmoor, Germany, on August 4th 1984. I was first knew him on the Euro Cup 2004. Germany was not in their best that time, they didn’t make it. They were eliminated in the group qualification. But, in the WC 2006, I saw him being the only one did hattrick! Germany got the 3rd place in the competition. I really loved him that time, wll, until now actually. But there’s something about him that makes me sad, he’s already taken. :(